In a very real sense, I understand. Not fully, but I understand.

I did something today that reminded me just how many compromises I make in my life; "little" compromises, "tiny" compromises, "compromises that God doesn't care that much about, right?" So I asked forgiveness from the person I had wronged by my compromise, and I stood for a moment before God and said, "I'm sorry. There was no excuse."

Yet I wonder how I can face God and my friends when I consider such compromise. "Little" things lead to big things, but that's not even the issue; the issue is that the "little" things can still poison us. How does a man survive in this spiritual wasteland? Either I look at myself and justify my sin, or I realize how much it truly grieves God's heart and then find myself unable to face God and man. I never truly learned how to grieve my sin even as I stand before God and allow myself to be purified. I must learn, and soon.